Battling Demons

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
 
Depression isn't a joke.
It's not something cute to poke fun at.
Depression is a serious disease.
 
I have depression.
 
I used to think something bad was wrong with me and I didn't know what it was.
I was different than everyone else.
When they would smile, I just couldn't find it within myself to do the same.
 
"Why don't you smile more?"
"Why do you always look mad?"
 
It would have me in tears because I would get made fun of even bullied about not being more "NORMAL". I would isolate myself from others. Much of my life has always been spent... alone.
 
Most of the time people don't "get it". They think I am making it up when I say that I can't be the way they think I should be. I can't be jolly and smile all the time. I refuse to fake my way through life.
I have depression.

I am sorry if you can't "handle" or "deal" with that. You don't have to. But I do.
 
What you can do is keep your mean and hateful little remarks away from me.
 
YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I GO THROUGH ON A DAILY BASIS.
 
In my life I tried to kill myself 3 times before I turned 18.
That is 3 times too many in my book.
Now that I am older and wiser, I can honestly say I am glad I didn't succeed.
Life is hard daily but it is worth fighting for even the briefest moments of happiness.
 
You are not alone.
There are people who can help.
There are MANY ways you can be helped and can control depression.
 
Explore what is right and what works for you.
 
The important part is not to give up, not to give in.

You have to battle the demons of depression on a daily basis and tell them that you are the strongest DEMON of them all... you set fire to them, you push them back, and you rise from the fire of their deaths STRONGER, BRAVER.

YOU CAN DO THIS...

If you ever need to talk... there is a MONSTER named Martha that will always be here for you. Use any of my facebook, twitter, or other contact information as you wish to contact me. I can offer as much support as I can but I am NO DOCTOR and I am NOT A THERAPIST. please... if you need help beyond my support, please promise you will seek out those professionals that can try to help you.

I believe in you. I love you.



100 Things you should NEVER say to people with Depression
http://www.monstermartha.com/2016/12/100-things-you-should-never-say-to.html
 

2 comments:

  1. "Life is hard daily but it is worth fighting for even the briefest moments of happiness."

    I feel same same. Even if you can't find love and joy, there's awe and gratitude, and those are worth struggling on.

    Hello. Glad I read this.
    -Utt

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    1. For some reason I didn't get notified you comment so sorry for the late reply.

      Thanks for the kind words.. I appreciate it. I'm glad my words meant something to someone.

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