Friday

Ten Things of Thankful

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Before I start... I want to say this has been a HARD week for me so if my list is a little DARK I apologize in advance.

I am thankful that...


  1. I am not like my Aunt Martha.
  2. That I don't live in Selma, Alabama anymore.
  3. That I am smarter than ANYONE gives me credit for.
  4. That I can read between the lines and SEE the truth.
  5. I am not greedy. That I believe in FAMILY and LOVE and HELPING OTHERS.
  6. That I am getting closer to Erin's family.
  7. That I cut ties with someone (an old friend) that made me feel UNCOMFORTABLE.
  8. For Jessica finding people to cut my yard for free every month since I am disabled. Even though she wasn't and isn't family by blood or by marriage/etc... she is FAMILY to me now because she did more for me than my own blood has done in most cases.
  9. For my ability to say "Fuck it" and let go and move on/past something that has hurt me.
  10. For the years I had with Dot Dot before she passed away this last week. I believe Mom would have been proud of me. I didn't leave her behind or get rid of her when Mom died. I kept her with me even though she was hard to deal with (calico cats usually are) and she dealt me fits sometimes. I think Mom wouldn't have believed the progress I made with her .... where she was coming to me, snuggling, loving, and kissing on me. She was a changed cat in her last years. I am sad to see her go but THANKFUL I had the time I had with her. Be at peace sweet girl. Find Mom and rest. Thank you for being my kitty family and friend. I love you.


15 comments:

  1. This is a really powerful list, Martha, and the fact that you were able to do it when you had such a difficult week is a testament to your will to survive and that you have a grateful heart! It is easy for people who have had difficult lives and painful experiences to feel beaten down and unworthy, and here you are reaching deep inside and realizing that you ARE smart, and capable, and caring! You are appreciative of your friends and those that help you, and.. a big and in my book... you took in DotDot when she needed a home and gave her a very good life where she was loved and cared for, and she obviously knew felt this in the way that she responded. Sometimes we really do have to walk away from the past, and from those who are not a healthy part of our lives, then we can be thankful that we see things for what they are and that we find the strength to stand up and say enough. I think you'd make an awesome caring neighbor to anyone who treated you in kindly. Thank you for finding the positive side of things and coming to share with us at TToT. May your next week be so much better! <3

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    1. I tried. I sat down and said... should I? And immediately I said to myself... YES. So I did the list. I felt beaten down... now I feel free. Liberated from the chains that bound me to a family that didn't value me at all. Now that I am free from those shackles I can be thankful I don't have the weight of their negative influence on my life. I feel better than I ever have. I know in my heart I did no wrong and that they are the ones that lost out, not me. I don't NEED people like them in my life. Now I can concentrate on building new better relationships. I've been doing a lot of letting go this year... and I can say it is for the better. I know moving forward it's going to be SO much better and brighter.

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  2. I'm so sorry for your loss...its such a heartbreak. Tons to be said in your ability to set and keep boundaries.

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  3. Dark? Not! Apolgies? So not necessary for yours is a wonderful list of self realization, power, acknowledgment, strength, compassion.
    Thank you for sharing Martha.

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    1. Thank you SO much for the kind words. I appreciate them. I just wrote from the heart. Thank you for reading and commenting.

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  4. Please accept my condolences for the loss of your cat, and my kudos to you for surviving what is obviously a very difficult life.

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    1. Thank you so much. Yea it's been a difficult road but it's not done and I know it'll only be better from now on. Thanks for commenting.

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  5. I am so sorry for the loss of Dot Dot. XO

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  6. I'm sorry for your loss but like you say, you have had so many good times with her. I'm also an advocate for not having people in your life who bring you down, so well done for moving on from that person.

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  7. I can feel your strength coming through your words in your list. You have had a tough time and you are moving forward with grace and positivity. This blog hop has helped me deal with anxiety and lots of other issues by focusing on gratitude for the good things. See you again.

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  8. The reason, imo, the TToT has thrived for as long as it has is that it is about people of good intent sharing those things related to gratitude. Even when, especially when the predominant feelings are otherwise. I suspect that the other commentationers have already said it, the TToT posts that are truly what this 'hop is about, are those written under 'duress'. To write of gratitude at times like that, is remarkable.

    Totally liked #9

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  9. The best time to do these lists is the time we least feel we can. So sorry about Dot Dot. :( The ability to cut ties, put things behind us, and move forward can be very painful and yet sometimes necessary. A gift of sorts to be able to do it. Thinking of you and hoping you're holding up.

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  10. Your belief in family, love, and helping others is always speaks highly of you. I'm so glad that you have a found a friend who is someone who feels like family and was willing to help you find someone to cut your lawn. It is hard to see something that needs to be done that you know you aren't able to do. I'm sure your Mom must feel proud of you!

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