Monday, March 16, 2015

Video Games: Martha lol's

Paarthurnax lost his shit:

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Advice: Fall in Love

Fall in love with someone who loves the way you laugh and would do absolutely anything to hear it. Fall in love with someone who puts their head on your chest just to hear your heart beat. Fall in love with someone who kisses you in public and is proud to show you off to anyone they know. Fall in love with someone who would never ever want to hurt you. Fall in love with someone who falls in love with your flaws and thinks you are perfect just the way you are. Fall in love with someone who knows that you are the ONE they would love to wake up to each day.

Life Lessons: I Choose Me

“Most of my life has been spent trying to shrink myself. Trying to become smaller. Quieter. Less sensitive. Less opinionated. Less needy. Because I didn’t want to be a burden. I didn’t want to be too much or push people away. I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be cared for and valued. I wanted to be wanted. So for years, I sacrificed myself for the sake of making other people happy. And for years, I suffered. But I’m tired of suffering, and I’m done shrinking. It’s not my job to change who I am in order to become someone else’s idea of a worthwhile human being. I am worthwhile. Not because other people think I am, but because I exist, and therefore I matter. My thoughts matter. My feelings matter. My voice matters. And with or without anyone’s permission or approval, I will continue to be who I am and speak my truth. Even if it makes people angry. Even if it makes them uncomfortable. Even if they choose to leave. I refuse to shrink. I choose to take up space. I choose honor my feelings. I choose to give myself permission to get my needs met. I choose me”
~Daniell Keopke

Thursday, March 5, 2015


So I saw this and instantly my nipples got hard...

He-Man goes Live action and this is the first photo of BATTLE CAT!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG. My childhood ... so nostalgic right now. I had all the He-Man
figures plus Castle Grey Skull and Snake Mountain. I had Battle Cat... he was my 
favorite... a tiger with bad ass armor. If this image is true, Battle Cat got upgraded
into an even better looking version and I am totally okay with that. I am happy.
Can't wait to see more.

Saturday, February 7, 2015

I have risen...

You can not deny who you are. 

You can run from it... 
but eventually it catches back 
up to you in the end. 

You might as well embrace it. 

Use it as a strength. 

Don't let it define you... 

I'm back. 

Back from a long sleep. 

I am awake now... fear me.

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Health Update - Cardiology Appt.

So I never updated how Cardiologist went today... so here it is.

I didn't see the new one. They scheduled me for Dr. Eway but at the office I used to go to... and guess what? He isn't at that one, he's at the other office. So I got to see my favorite doctor... S.C. She's awesome. I love her. So my heart is weak. Not up to par but it is stronger than it was after the stent placement so that's encouraging. No blockages in the main artery which made me tear up ... I was so overjoyed to hear that. To maintain and help this progress I am going to have to continue no sodium, all my medication, and exercise. It takes time for someone who had a heart attack and heart failure to bounce back. But she seemed hopeful I could do this. So that's the update. I go back in 6 weeks.

Friday, January 16, 2015

I owe WHAT?!?!?!

9 days in the hospital... this is my bill...


Thursday, January 15, 2015

Honoring my late father - Johnny Pittman

I received this in the mail today honoring my late Dad, 
Johnny Lee Pittman, Army Vietnam Veteran.

I love you Daddy. Well done.

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Best and Worst of 2014

While I have all this "down" time... thought I'd do my best/worst of 2014

BEST of 2014

* Dolph Ziggler wins IC championship
* Sting finally in WWE
* WeeLC 'nuff said
* Erick Rowan's new character direction
* Dean Ambrose, enough said.
* The Hobbit Battle of the Five Armies
* Me finding TV Shows like Gotham, Orange is the New Black... and continuing great ones like Walking Dead, Game of Thrones, and Sons of Anarchy
* Sons of Anarchy final ride... perfect end to my fave show
* Star Wars episode 7 trailer
* Birth of my Quads... Moxley, Fleckie, Sweetie, & Puddin'
* Realizing I like veggies more than meat
* Reducing my soda to almost absolute zero
* All the great movies I saw and all that were announced.... what a great year.
* Winning my court case

WORST of 2014

* getting sick so much
* not able to get around as well
* the incident with Richard the liar
* Prices of things like food ... the increase in beef price esp.
* my temper
* Brock Lesnar as WWE Champ
* Brock Lesnar defeating Undertaker's undefeated streak at Wrestlemania 30
* The Authority return to power so quickly.
* End of Sons of Anarchy... I never wanted it to end.
* No family for entire 2014

This is just a few.... I am tired now.

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Abusive Relationships

"I left my abusive relationship because ____" 

I was tired of being controlled and then tossed aside. I had lost so much of myself that I didn't even recognize ME anymore... it was time to reclaim myself. I had my heart attack... and I knew when he didn't show at the hospital to be at my side that there was NO LOVE... it was time to go.

Your abuse does not have to be what you consider to be the most severe kind to matter.

Your abuse did not have to last years to matter.

Your abuse does not have to be worse than anyone else’s you know to matter.

Your abuse did not have to be something you were completely helpless to prevent in order to matter.

Your abuse did not have to endanger your life to matter.

Your abuse did not have to cause PTSD to matter.

Your abuser did not have to be cruel in every moment for your abuse to matter.

Your abuse did not have to break bones and leave scars to matter.

Abuse is abuse is abuse. You matter. What happened to you matters. It is not a competition. You do not have to have had the most tragic experience for your abuse to matter. It all matters.

Friday, November 7, 2014

Memories - Mom

Missed Mom today... thought of her when she used to drive me around and I'd pop in Marilyn Manson and her eyes would roll. She still let me be myself and rock out all the time. I am thankful I had a mother like her. It gets easier not to cry ... and those tears now turn to smiles with a few less tears.